Be a better Me ..

There are some changing in me,
either I realized it or one condition made me realized I'm changing ...
I'm a person who hate war, fight or other things similar. And I'm always trying to move backward when I knew the situation will make violance things happen.

For example, when I talked with my friend about a thing she believed 100 % and at the same time I tought it was wrong then I tried to accept her explanation but inside I feel she's not 100 % right about it.

But now, when someone say that its true or, I didn't do it coz its your fault and others .. I will say what I'm thinking about it, though it would make conflict. Of course, I wont let conflict happen, but now I choose to defend my faith with the right way and say it out loud.

Now, I'm braver than I was ..
And I'm proud of me because of it ..
I think if the changing in me turn to be better me, I dont mind about it ..

Good Looking Guy ..

Hmm ..
I fell in love with Tom Welling when the first time I saw Smallville, and since then I admire his good looking. His teasing and sweet smile, his sexy lips, his deep and blue eyes, his perfect face and body. He's tall. I always like tall man, coz I feel I'm not tall enough so maybe it would be good if my couple is a tall guy. I also like him ( I know I'm so much influenced with his performance as Clark Kent, but I only know him from that movie.. what can I do?) coz he seems so wise, patience and shy. He's just a good guy every women wants to have as couple ... and also good looking guy of course, hahaha ...?!!!

Lately I watch Meteor Garden 1 again, I forget how many times I watched this movie.. and I'm impressed (again ..?!!!) with him as Dao Ming Shi. He's not someone everybody can fall in love with coz he's rude, so spoiled and someone who cannot accept the word NO. But his deep and loyal love to Shan Cai makes me feel so jealous to Shan Cai. He's sweet, forgiveness, he has sweet smile and great face & body (he's tall for asian men), one of a good looking guy I like to see.

Sometimes I just wondered,
Will I have someone who'll sacrifice his life only for me not anyone else ..
Will I have someone who'll understand me inside and outside without me telling him A to Z about it ..
Will I have someone who accept me just the way I am without changing me to someone else ..
Will I have someone who cares, loyal and wise and complete me in every single thing in my life ..
Will I have someone who can stand to me whenever I got angry, sad, bored and different kind of feeling and his love wont less even a bit ..
Will I have that man ..??
I'm waiting ..
I'm waiting for the right person ..

Godaan ... godaan ....

Aje gile?!!!
Barang-barang pada diskon, dimana-mana terpajang pengumuman sale gede-gedean. Yang punya duit pasti ga pikir-pikir sampe dua kali buat beli apalagi barangnya bukan barang yang abal-abal. Siapa juga yang ga tertarik walo cuman ngelirik aja atau ngebatin dalam hati I wish I have money to buy it ...

Hhhh ...
Pagi-pagi udah dibikin iri sama teman sekantor karena dompet barunya yang keren bin kece. Dompet warna biru muda buatan GOSH itu katanya cuman 79ribu. CUMAN 79 RIBU DOANGGG ...

Tapi tetep aja kalo ga punya duit mau dikata apa??? Padahal ngiler banget liatnya. Soalnya emang keren b.a.n.g.e.t ... :( warnanya biru muda (my favourite colour), bentuknya mungil (duh ... ayu banget sih :P) terus keliatannya kayak tas kecil gitu, keren banget kan????

Yahhh ...
godaannya memang gede banget .. pilihan yang ada juga sulit. Masalahnya akhir bulan ini ada sale buku dan gajian bulan ini udah dijatahin buat beli buku. Coba ada keajaiban datang, tiba-tiba ada orang baik hati yang membelikan (dasar ngarep?!!!) atau ada rejeki nomplok kayak menang lotere atau dapat hadiah dari sodara-sodara yang punya kelebihan materi (ngarep juga?!!!)

Ya sudahlah..
Dompet biru yang bentuknya kayak tas mungil kecil yang sangat menggoda hatiku ..
Sepertinya memang kamu tidak ditakdirkan untukku ...
Hiks .. hiks ...